Monday, January 17, 2011

It's scary when life is so good...

Do you ever notice how when things just start going so well for you in life, you think you've figured things out, you maybe start falling for someone, you're excited for new adventures, the people you love are happy and in good health, ya know... when things are just going well... and then all of a sudden they're not.

I always get scared when I'm really happy, because I know something is about to creep around the corner and destroy it. I try to live into that happiness while it lasts because it's sooooo amazing... but I try to keep a distance so that when it's over it doesn't hurt quite as bad. 

However, it always hurts... rejection, loneliness, pain, sorrow, disappointment, fear, anger, resentment... seem to creep their way back in.

My life, as I'm sure many peoples life, is just on big Katy Perry song.... Hot and Cold.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Resolutions - why wait til New Years?!

So i'm all for people making goals for themselves, and if they need the boost of New Years to help them set goals, then great! At least they're setting them right?!?! But i say, why wait?! Why wait to improve your life somehow. Why not today (well, today is New Years, but ya know what i mean)?!?!

i made a goal for myself at the end of July that i wanted to lose 100 pounds in a year. i've already lost 60 and it's been roughly 5 months. So i'm over half way there! YAY! But now i'm thinking more, ok i want to have lost 100lbs by the end of May, and i want to train to run in a half marathon after i've lost all that weight.

i try to make goals for myself everyday, whether it's "today i'm going to be a better teacher in this aspect" or "i'm going to eat perfectly" or "i'm going to talk to a homeless person" or "i'm going to actively set aside time to do nothing and sit in silence". i don't physically write them down or always consciously think about it, but i am always trying to improve, move forward ya know!?

Nobody's perfect right? but i'm pretty sure we all have aspirations in life, and i say why wait? Do it today! Be happy today! Be healthy NOW! Love someone NOW! Make a difference NOW! Start saving to go on that trip, start eating differently, start praying more, start reading more, start working out more, start WHATEVER today!!!!!